RM4500? $.$

ARrrrr...!!! Christy, you damn freaking ugly Bitch!!
.....im u-g-l-y

Its May.. Its a raining season.. Everyday Rain.. *sigh* How could i work? I'm sick. I had fever and flu. Now i cough like hell.. Seriously, im not in the mood to work. Im fuckin lazy. I am happy while thinking about my next salary. It is about RM4500. For me, it is a HuGe number yet it couldn't cover my needs. What makes my that rich? Yes, its because of my hardwork and my dad's support. Thanks dad. I had 24 approvals. 6 platinum credit cards, 10 gold c.cards, 7 ready cash cards & 1 cash back..guess so. Comission for one platinum card is around rm190, gold card and ready cash are same price which is rm95 each. Feel excite when think about it. ^^

But.. I'm not happy at all. My life is very complicated. I want it to be simple. I want to love and to be love. I just don't know why it is so difficult for me. And now, i am just fool around.. I learn to flirt, learn how not to be hurt. and learn how to stop crying when i been hurt.

Yeah, there's someone who wants to be with me and to build a long term relationship.. as long as we can.. But, i got scare of it. *shrug* I have no idea on how to love someone again.. My wounds are there, deep in my heart..

I miss someone badly..

There are some certain guys, for me, they are pathetic. Dexter is one of them. I mean he can be the 1st of them. He is totally a dickhead. If i wanna da xiao ren, then he will be my second or third xiao ren. Stupid him.

I found out a guy, he likes me because of my look. He will stop 'loving' me if once i cut my hair.. Pathetic~

Another guy, he is irritating. Super ga ga cau, ngam ngam cham cham and ah ji ah zo. Everyday ring me and talk loads of his previous love story.. 30 years old guy.. Disguisting man.. I'd told him that i dislike him to ring me everyday especially working time and bed time but he is still doing it. Even i yelled at him that day on the phone. Im fucking sick and tired d and what i need is rest. But this fucker keep calling me and ask why i don't pick up his phone. Thanks to stupid Andy cuz he is the one who gave my number to this old man.. If he rings again, im not sure what will i gonna talk to him.

I need to work hard.. WORK HARD!!