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Y it's so kecil one? Click it and look at the place that i've circled then you'll know what is in my mind. Haha!!

Well, im just too boring to stay home. I've finished watching the drama series, have to return it and take the rest episode. Im watching the latest drama "To Grow with Love". It's funny! Since that is the latest drama, I have to wait for few weeks until it's all arrived then i'll be able to watch the drama. So kesian.

Mum is not around. Shes back to Tawau for holidays with her 'sei dong'. She is having real fun this time, staying at hotel and dance around at Frequency or maybe Shore Room while i have to be so busy to catch up tons of houseworks. Somemore, i have to tahan kena bully by the old woman. How many hours, how many minuttes and how many seconds i have to be strong?

Aiyo~ Something unexpected happens.. I couldn't believe it and i have no idea how to face it. Why all these questions came towards me whenever i'm STOP thinking of being love or love? Pengsan oh!! You know, i've learned to say "no". Sometimes it works, sometimes it is not. When someone keep bothering me, i couldn't blame on them, because its just like me, "sei qin lan da". Who is my true love, and who is my Mr Right? Seriously, i got scare of it. Somehow, i guess i might quit from the world of love. NO LOVE! Hah! Nowadays, recieving non stop of phone calls and smsES, im not sure it is fun or not but my poor phone have to stay with the charger from hours to hours.

Once again, i found another 2 Tawau long lost friends. Chat with them are fun. Reminds me of my secondary school life at Sabah Chinese High School. One of them getting marry, probably will be next year. I'm shocked that she told me who has already get married. Gee.. most of my friends were married. She is soooo curious why am i still single. Why? Long story. Somemore, she said she will intro me some leng zai friends for me. Adui.. better stay away from me.. I had enough of it.

I guess that's it for today. ;)

SS

Sot sial. >.<

Countdown: a month..

I hate LOVE!! I hate GUY!! and i definately HATE-so-much of being HURT!! Im just wondering why can't i just fucking get over you? Why is it so fucking difficult? You know, i am very stressful to face it by myself. How can you just close your eyes, be cool and let it happen? Aren't you a human being? But where is your heart? Liars!! You're fuckin Selfish!!

notti

King, the big damn scary drunk eye & me

*bluek*

You're my honey bunch, sugar plum, pumpy umpy umpkin, you're my sweety pie.

You're my cuppy cake, gum drop, snookum snookums pure, you're the apple of my eye.

And i love you so, and i want you know that i'll always be right here.

And i love~~ to sing these songs to you because you..are..so..dear...

*big big grin*

Selamat Hari Raya

Today is 25th oOo.. A grand wedding ceremony is happening at Tawau. Unfortunately, i can't attend and im just stuck in my house. T.T Early morning, i'd recieved a mms from my dear Q Q, he sent the picture of the wedding ceremony in the church to me. Eiyer yerrrr~ and i've just missed it!! How i wish i could be there. ~~~>.<~~~

Uiyo, almost forget that tomorrow is my parent's 20th wedding anniversary. Ehehehe.. It seems to be a normal day..nothing special. =/

AaaAaHhhhH~~~ I am so so so longing to step into college and FEEL & SMELL the college life.. But once i step in, i guess i will start complain this and that. No more 'everyday is my holiday'. Have to be super hardworking and struggle cause this is about my future. God Bless Me!!

Last night was totally...totally...eh..WHATEVER. Me and my friends were held a suprise birthday party for Kingston. How we called it as 'suprise party'? 1st, Connie and Debra had suggest that to take dinner at Debra's place. Then Kingston called up the friends. BUT, we all rejected Kings' invitation with all kind of reasons. Kings was dissapointed. HAHA.. Our plan is half success. 8 sharp at night, we all meet up at Tanjung Aru Plaza then we altogether headed to Waikiki. When reached Deb's place, me, Deb, Kelly and Don busy to set up all the stuffs. At the same time, i realised that there's no food but only liquors and beers. Geee.. Im getting hungry and i haven't eat since morning. Don and I decided to go 7 Eleven to buy some junk foods and ice. At the mean time, Kingston called. Hahaha.. I had a funny conversation with him.

Kings: "Christy, are you coming or not? I pick you up la now."
Me : " Nola, i have my own programme."
Kings: " What's your programme then?"
Me : " Aiyo, am going to Starbucks with my friends"
Kings: " Yala, follow your friends la.. I will remember that.. "
(He starts merajuk)
Me : " Yerrr.. What oOo? Your guys have fun la.."
Kings: " I heard that the drinks from Starbucks are not nice."
Me : =.= " Let me try 1st lo.."
Kings: " Yala, follow your jiao bet friends la.."
Me : " Ah then, go to Debra's place for what eh?"
Kings: "Drink la.."
Me : " Drink only? I want food eh"
Kings: " Got food la.. but abit..."
Me : "Abit? Hmm, nevermind la.. See 1st ler.."
Kings: " Actually kan, i don't wanted you to go bah. I'm hoping you to say No."
Me : " WUAT?!! "
Kings: " Hehe.. "
Me : " Why u call me then?"
Kings: " Bah, just asking kan.."
Me : " Bloody hell.."
Kings: " Hahahaha.."
Me : " Ish.. Don't kacau me la.. I need to hung up and go shower."
Kings: " bah..bah.."

He was trying to piss me off. But then, i knew he was dissapointed. You know, sengaja?
S-E-N-G-A-J-A Hahaha.. While on the way back to Deb's place after 7 Eleven, Kingston called Don and asked him to go. Don rejected him says that he is on the way to his cousin's place. Wohoo.. I can imagine how dissapointed he is..

We expected its not that suprise because we parked our car somewhere near the entrance. They told me that foods are serve and FINALLY i saw satays and chicken wings. Around 8.30pm, they spoted King's car was driving into the entrance. He was here!! Well, they all were waiting his arrive while im busy at the kitchen. After awhile, i heard Kingston shout my name at the corridor. Adeiii... >.<

Then he cames in, and all of us say 'suprise'.. He was like a xiu xiu miao.. LOL!

Makan, minum, chit-chat, karaoke....bla bla bla.. They're drunk and gone crazy. Everyone except me were CRAZY!! I was worrying how should i back home.. Thank God, i back home safely but its already 3am. Before back home, went to Don's place for drink. Not me but Russ.

Something funny about Don is, he says he wanna back home 1st, but, we saw him still standing outside of the lift when we all came out from Deb's place. He told us that he can't find the way out and he kept berpusing-pusing in the condo. ROFLMAO!

Oh! Ou~ I guess somethings went wrong with my photo uploader.

Hah, that's it. Hula hula~

Break News

*BIG sigh* Qiqi has dead. =(( I am damn sad right now. Yesterday i picked him up from my neighbour's place, he was still ok. But today when i was going to clean the aquarium, i saw he was like...nyawa nyawa ikan.. After few hours of 'fight hard for life', he is really dead. =(( There's no more bubble fishy in my house. ~~>.<~~ I bet that Qiqi miss Wawa alots, hope he could be with Wawa right after this.

What am i talking about?!!

Wuwuwuwuwuwuwuwuwu~

On Vacation

My name & some footprints

2 days ago, i was on vacation to Kudat. We've found a beautiful sandy beach there and we named it as 'Lagoon' (actually that is my dad and his friend's idea) It's so beautiful. You can see either deep blue sea or shinny silver sea.. The air...are so refreshing.. ;)

The weather is hot but its windy. There's a western guy cames from Netherland talked to me for awhile. I guess he wanted to take pictures with me. Haha.. but he is just too shy. LOL!

Wowee!!

Things that could cheer me up..

-*- I'd recieve my biu gosS' wedding invitation. KaboOoOoOoOmM~

-*- College life gonna get start soooooon by next year. That's what im longing. *grins* All i need to do now are, to go to college & apply for the course, and and and... SHOP FOR MUA's NEW OUTFIT!! ;)

-*- MALAYSIAN enjoy 5 days public holidays start from tomorrow until 25th cuz we're celebrating Deepavali & Hari Raya Adilfitri. Everyday is my holiday. =p

-*- I'd swear, I MUST get back my money from the DAMN STUPID LIAR!!

-*- My parents are having their 20th Wedding Anniversary on next Thursday same as 26th of October. 可喜可贺 yo~

Things that bring me down...

-*- I'm having absolute pain that drives me crazy.. *sniff sniff*

-*- Mum says i looks PUCAT & mata putih jadi mata kuning.. kinda unhealthy wor.. What happen? What happen? >.<

I guess that's it. Not feeling well. Ciaoz

我的眼中钉

特征: 一头短卷发,样子凶神恶煞。

缺点: 自大,霸道,无知,偏心,自私,丑陋,outdated,头脑简单.四肢发达, 脾气暴躁,无聊,三八,狗眼看人低, 姓 “赖”，狡猾，贪得无厌，欺人，愚蠢，说话不经大脑，鸡婆，人见人恨，自以为是,得罪人多.称呼人少!!

优点： 尚未发现。

Comment: 讨人厌!!没得救!!

Announcement

Dear*yinG^xu3`* friends,

No post will be update right after this for a short period. Sorry for the incovenience and grateful for your concern.

Yours faithfully,

Ken

Thought

Current mood:- dissapointed, upset, fed up..and so on

Dear you,

Some words when spoken, such as some actions when done could cut deep. The only way to get over is to ignore it. Somehow someday, the deep wound will become just a small scar.. and one day will finally diminish, for time heals..

=((

Beautiful on the inside

Been reading Chicken soup for the soul's Beautiful on the inside, a very good and virtuous story.

Writer Pamela J,deRoy states that Love is a wonderful thing. You never have to take it away from one person to give it to another. There's always more than enough to go around.

Being beautiful on the inside is a choice you make. To be good to your parents, a good sister to your brother and a good friend to the others you hang around with. You have to care about other people. You need to be caring and loving when someone is in trouble or gets hurt and needs a friend. When you do all those things, you are beautiful on the inside.

;)

Moral learnt.

Lavender

The clearest sky imaginable, the hazy outline of smoky blue hills in the distance, and below as far as the eye can see, a gentle carpet of purple hues is billowing. Rounded bushes with long spikes of flowers are slowly coming into focus. Endless rows of luscious lavender hug the countors of the hillside, rising in serried ranks to meet the edge of eucalyptus forests beyond...

Lavender blue, dilly dilly.

Lavender green

when i am king, dilly dilly

you shall be queen.

;)

爱人与被爱

在我工作期间,通过我妈介绍,认识一位老人家.因为当时我妈认为他可以在公事上助我一臂之力.他是我妈在我弟的学校认识的.这位老人家,我们都称他为 Mr Diong.他非常非常地关心我.为的只是他的宝贝儿子.他渴望我去认识他的儿子,更好的话,和他发展.

认识我的朋友都知道我前一份工作是帮人申请信用卡.每天都要去寻找新的顾客,说服他们使用Citibank的信用卡.有一天,我就拨了一通电话给 Mr Diong,因为之前听说他很乐意助人,相信他会帮我一个忙.就这样,约了下午的时间,地点就在他的办公室 wisma sabah里.我依着所约的时间,到他办公室.办公室只有他,他的弱智女儿和他的秘书.他很开心能见到我.话题就开始了.

首先,我向他道明来意.过后,他就吩咐秘书为我泡茶.同一时间,他拿了许多的照片,大部分的照片都是关于他的工作 -他是从事伐木业- 一小部分是他的家庭.他也拿出了一些图,这些图对他十分重要,非常机密.他透露哪里是他的黄金地带.他希望我能保持秘密.他相似在和我透露他有多少百万身家.不久,他就拿出一张照片.看着照片,我第一个反应是"天啊!怎么会这样子?" 从我脸上的表情,他似乎知道我在想些什么.他说,这个是我的儿子.我静静地听他说.他儿子一生下来就是这样,可是他非常荣幸有这个儿子因为....生了儿子一段时间后,老婆怀孕了.十月怀胎,终于生下一个女的,拼成一对'好'字.可是过了不久,医生检验到他的女儿是弱智的.难免感到失望.他说不管怎样都好,他们始终是他和太太的亲生骨肉.再怎么辛苦也好,都要一手把他们养大.现在,他感到很骄傲,因为他的儿子有了成就,一份不错的工作.他还把他的儿子的名片给了我,希望我能和他交朋友.而且,他还拍了我的照片.顺便,他向我解释.一向来,他都是从事牧师的工作.当天晚上,我将事情的一五一十告诉我妈.她笑说,她老早已经知道他对我好的理由.

当时的我,很抗拒..心里说,我怎么可以跟他儿子有什么关系呢? 我非常的徘彻..不是我看样子才和男生交往.起码,要有一个标准的样子.

至今,Mr Diong都还是很关心我,时不时都在我妈或朋友面前提起我.叫我找机会念书..一大堆的.. 回想一下,其实我这样徘彻别人是不对的.甚至有点可怜他.Mr Diong曾向我提过为何他儿子不肯接受整容.儿子和他说,那是上帝赐给他的,所以,他不想有任何一些改变.这样的想法很伟大.他不顾及别人的流言蜚语,在这样的逆境成长,现在还有一番成就.我觉得自己很自私.

我相信.有残缺的人都比一般人更珍惜身边的人.他们所付出得都是真爱.为什么我们不能给他们一次机会过着正常人的生活呢?

我几乎已经放弃爱人的权利,很想好好地享受被爱的感觉..对自己,为何说不呢?

Season of wedding

当开取msn messager的时候,查看下,有位来自斗湖的朋友.他的msn写着'getting engage'. 认识我的人都知道,我是一个死三八,什么事情都不能错过.追问下,他承认是要向他的女友订婚,他的父母亲也同意.女方来自butterworth.但是,还未曾见过对方家长,所以事情就搁着啦!和他谈了不久,他爆说他几个月前才认识那位女生.问他何时才和她在一起,他答几个星期前.我顿时,傻了!!我的妈呀! 现在流行超早婚吗? 再问他为什么那么快想"拉埋天窗",他说,他找到一种前所未有的感觉.

婚姻对我而言是人生中非....常重要的一部分.若是真的,得看对方是不是自己的真爱,对自己对家人会是怎样...等等的..才能浪漫地说出"yes i do". 毕竟婚前与婚后有很大的差别.怎样的差别呢? 若你有收看"女人唔易做"就最好不过了.因为,它的故事是演绎着现代的女人的生活,事业及婚姻.从中,男人和女人都可以得到启示.我本身对婚姻其实有一点恐惧.因为...父母亲就是最好的例子.就算能找到一个绝世好男人娶你.样子,钱财,整颗心都有.可是,一丁点的距离和不信任都会造成分开你们的理由.婚姻是一辈子.所有人都希望自己能找到真正的幸福.若是找到了,就要懂得珍惜.俩人要互相懂得维持那一份感情,一些争吵是难免的.争吵中,会更认识对方.争吵后,要知道自己的对与错,然后加以更改.

不管怎样都好,他始终都是我的朋友,在此,衷心祝福他.对了!!我怎么可以忘了呢!! 刚才我收到我三个表哥的超级红炸弹!!三个表哥会在同一时间结婚,摆酒 oOo.这是前所未有的呖! 百座席,千人宴..超盛大!超壮观! 只可惜我无法参与..更遗憾的是,少了机会muk靓仔! >.< 我要回斗湖!!!

With praise and thanksgiving to God

Mr & Mrs Jeffrey Shim Chok Guan

cordially request the pleasure of the company of

Christy Liew Shing Yii

to share in the joy of the marriage of their sonS

*

Jeffrey Jr. Chi Hui to Alpin Kansil @ Choo,

the second daughter of

Mr & Mrs Alex Kansil @ Choo

*

Jason Chi Yunn to Cavy Yuen Wan Yee,

the only daughter of

Mr & Mrs Yuen Tek Pang

*

Jefferson Chi Tzen to Ivy Koh Hiau She,

the youngest daughter of

Mr & Mrs Koh Teck Hong

which will be solemnized at the

St. Patrick's Church, Tawau

on

Wednesday,25 October 2006

at

10.00 am followed by a tea reception.

You are also invited to the wedding banquet at

Lau Gek Poh Foundation Building

Jalan Durahman, Mile 1/2

Jalan Tanjung Batu, Tawau

at 6.30pm.

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhh!!! Hell! Im gonna miss it!! =((

原味

冷冷的天气,思念着暖暖的拥抱 ;)

My dearest Grandpa

人会生老病死..我们都要接受.可是,眼前正在生病的人是你至亲,你会怎样? 很想帮他,却无能为力.只能静静呆在一旁,默默祈祷,盼望他会痊愈.他是最疼爱我的外公.近年来,身体不舒服.有好几次都要住院观察.今天妈咪很无奈地告诉我,公公的肝开始硬化,上次检验到他的心脏有问题,排血系统不好..等等..相似什么病统统都到齐了.妈咪也说,公公会离开我们,那是迟早的事.我听了,整颗心好像掉进谷底.整个人呆了.我好想哭,可是哭不出来..他和婆婆俩可是世界上最疼爱,超宠我的人,妈咪有时都会吃醋.如果他离开,我真的不知该如何是好.无论以前犯过什么错,他们都是最早原谅我的人.每一次出外国游玩,他们一定会带很多礼物给我.公公在斗湖有一点小名气,认识他的人居多,所以我觉得自豪.公公是一位受人尊敬,爱戴的老人家.公公不开玩笑时很认真,一笑起来却很慈祥.小时候,他们都带我到处游玩..生日派对也是他们帮我搞的.什么东西最好的,他们一定会送给我.今年中,因为工作的关系要回斗湖走一趟,所以要寄宿在公公的家.那时侯的他非常削瘦,没有精神似的.旁人看了,都会觉得心疼.医生说他因为体重过量,排血系统出了问题,长时间内会造成生命危险.医生要他减轻体重,依时看病吃药.在那期间,他吃得很少.可能是营养不足,药性强,弄得他身体弱,无时无刻都疲倦想睡觉.听者心酸.他承受着痛苦,为了我们,他都隐藏起来.现在的我不知如何是好.我真的希望他早日康复.May God hears my prayer.


** taken during chinese new year 06


** mami, grandpa & me (he looks very healthy)


** taken on his birthday 06, i wasn't around. >.<

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-------- few months later

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** He looks so difference. Poor gung gung :((

176

又是一个寂寞的夜晚..租来的"人生马戏团"也大结局了.雨下了一场又一场,下得我的心也超级烦燥!! 何时才会停雨呢? 期盼着它会停雨.

考验? 这会是怎样的考验? 等待,恐怕只是一段没有开始也没有结束的感情.

相隔两地,果真的很辛苦. 不仅要面对相思之苦,还要面对种种的考验.但是,只要对方能维持一份信念,什么样的障碍都可以一一克服.

他,一直在寻找一个能了解他的女生.可是,他始终没解开心里的锁.试问,有谁能够了解他,帮助他? 能有谁能每一次猜测他在想什么? 经历了一次爱情失败,从此就把自己给封锁在黑暗里,这样的他会快乐吗? 看着他,心里会有一股莫名的痛.

这一两年来,我一直都在坚持,因为我相信我们之间有希望.

但,人总会累.

若有一天,眼泪停止流下.我相信我已不再爱他.

Shopping Queen for ONCE

Too boring and was so unhappy to stay home. Went out with my lao po to shop like mad! First we went to damai to take our breakfast. Rain and wind blows heavily but couldn't stop our motivation. Then we took taxi to Wisma Merdeka, our shopping journey get started. After few hours, lao po's boy boy picked us up to Center. We shopped until 9 then back home. Oops, should say, just me who back home.

Things that i bought and prices---
* Crystal Bracelet rm 128
* Reload coupon rm 10
* 3 Inch high heels rm 70
* Blouse rm 42
* Skirt rm 40
* 2 Copped Jacket rm 94
* 4 Magazines rm 50
* Gift rm 94
* Jean, Singlet & accesories rm 79
* Elianto facial products rm 50
* Others rm 30
Total rm 687

I've lost the facial products, not even know where'd i lost it. *sigh* Well, im not rich but im stressful.I just wanted some excitement, so that's it. Stay home ALONE and always are really bad for me. I wanted to do something like maybe attend a dance class, yoga as well.. But im just being lazy.

Things i MUST done by tomorrow or soon are ---
# Buy and deliver mooncakes for relatives & friends!! -sounds so aunties hor, but im just too kind, 孝順 *grins*-
# Hair cut

I guess that's all. I'm hungry and i need to find something to eat. Anyway, tomorrow is mooncake festival. Must sit nyet biang, yim cha, diao den lung oOo.. Have fun! ^ ^

Haze. Rain. Thunder

Moody, because of the weather. Really unhealthy. Human will easily fall sick due to stupid Forest Fire that happens at Indonesia AGAIN!! See this . Poor citizens of Indonesia, Malaysia and Singapore.. Poor lil me.. Haih.. Gut tiu tung oOo.. Gettin sick. =/ Kena shocked somemore by the thunder. Hopefully tomorrow will be alright. ^ ^

Everything I'm Not

This morning
-I got 40 friend requests and 11 messages @ myspace. NONE of them is female. I've just approved 2 guys out of 40 to-be-my-friend-but-they-are-not. As usual, i got some weird messages. I'll never reply except if i find out you're something special. LOL

-I haven't eat anything yet.

-I'm not suppose to wake up early because i've done my houseworks. zZz

-when i look at the mirror, i saw swollen eyes. T.T

-I found out the correct spelling for phylopdelphia is p-h-i-l-a-d-e-l-p-h-i-a. Cee.. What's that means la?

-I forgot to pass the vcds to my mum.
_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _

Oh no
Don't go changing
That's what you told me from the start
Thought you were something different
That's when it all just fell apart
Like you're so perfect
And I can't measure up
Well I'm not perfect
Just all messed up

I was losing myself to somebody else
But now I see
I don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the girl that you want
She was tearing us apart
Cause she's everything
Everything I'm not

It's not like I need somebody
Telling me where I should go at night
Don't worry you'll find somebody
Someone to tell how to live their life
Cause your so perfect
And no one measures up
You're all by yourself
and all messed up

I was losing myself to somebody else
But now I see
I don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the girl that you want
She was tearing us apart
Cause she's everything
Everything I'm not

Now wait a minute
Because of you
I never knew all the things that I had
Hey don't u get it
I'm not going anywhere with you tonight
Cause this is my life

I was losing myself to somebody else
But now I see
I don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the girl that you want
She was tearing us apart
Cause she's everything
Everything I'm not

But now I see
I don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the girl that you want
She was tearing us apart
Cause she's everything
Everything I'm not

*** The Veronicas

昨夜...

下了一場大雨, 那么清凉的天气, 还有谁无法入睡, 恐怕只有我罢了.

这一夜很难熬.

回想起以前所发生的事, 我只能叹息.

很无奈, 也很无助.

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妈咪望了望窗外就说, 身在外国的他一定很可怜吧.

我: 别再提起他了.

妈咪露出很好奇的样子.

我: 我和他不曾在一起,也未必能在一起, 所以...

妈咪哑然无声.想再进一步告诉她发生什么事,她似乎不想再听下去.转身就回房间去了.

妈咪是否也和我一样? 对他有所失望?

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我心中有太多太多的疑问.

这两年内所发生的事,他真的可以只把我当成朋友吗?

有很多事情,只有男人可以做到的,但女人做不到的, 这就是其中一件.

tragic hor..

而男人做不到,女人却可以的,也就是默默等待.

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褪色了的回憶

** 粉紅怪胎 & 藍穎雪 **

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Last night i was drunk. I still remembered who did i called and what'd i talked and i cried. Cried soooo hard.. so loud.. until my mum knew about it. GREAT!! F*cking great!! She wants to find out what's happen to me.

男主角是誰,她根本都不曉得.
她唯一很確定的是, 我被傷得很深.

sigh.

假如,有一天,她知道傷害我的人是他.
她會怎樣?
我不知道..
在所有人的面前,我套上假面具.
沒有人知道我是誰..