*sigh*

too much to say..

too much to feel..

too much of being hurt..

have to stop.. whatever it is.. i guess i can't stand it anymore..

he deserves a better life, and i better stop bothering him...

this is what i think past 3 days and now..

i am too much for him..

right time? yeah.. guess so?

ain't running away but just...too much of what've i done..

time to consider.. whatever choice i have now..

i feel like crap..

never lose of him since we haven't been together..

why do i think about losing him?

enough to say..

enough to feel..

enough of being hurt..

:(((

Went out to watch 'pink panther' with Ray after back from hosp. I need to laugh.. I did it. I laughed as loud as i can but at the same time i cried. Guess nobody notice of it.. Insult Inspector Clouseau of his stupidness but im the stupid-est one compare with him. Never lie to myself that im sad, im hurt.. 1 nights in hosp were too long for me..like ages. After movie, drove off the cinema, i realised that i lost my cellphone. Asked Ray drove back to cinema as fast as he can. Find it all around the place, the place that i passed by.. asked the cleaners.. None of them saw it. I was totally down.. I can't lose of it..because a part of memories were inside the phone. Called to the phone but no respond at all cuz it was in silent mode. Not because of the phone, its because somethings that really important to me were in there.. I asked if they have recorder, but hell, the manager wasn't around.. I wanted to cry at that time but Ray stopped me. Suddenly, i remember that there's another pocket inside my bag. Checked it, i found my cell phone..Im glad i didn't lost it. My heart like skipped a beat.. I hope i won't be careless anymore.

Back home, went online, i found my good old friend, Wilfred. Chatted with him. It is great for me because i found out the boy that played with me when i was still a kid. The pictures of us was always in my mind. Im glad that i've found him. We haven't meet each other for such a long long time. He wasn't in when i went to his house during every chinese new year. Hope he is doing fine now and always..

Need to sleep now, its late and im tired.

Going to call see hua daily's reporter due to the complain of missing letters and parcel. Hope it could help. Post Malaysia are real sucks!! Jabatan Air, Sabah is ridiculous! Price of petrol increased AGAIN by whopping 30 sen. Government ain't working at all!! Ain't talking nonsence, am speaking out the truth!! What have you, you, you and you done? 5 days working? Do you think it is enough for a country to move forward?? You're just wrong! Don't talk about Mission 2020.. It's HOPELESS!! It's just really SARCASTIC!! It's totally an EMBARRASSMENT!

Listen to peoples' voice, perhaps Malaysia will move forward abit.. Yeah..just a bit.. Cuz there are too many problems that we can't imagine of it.

Desire* my wishful thought

When i wake up in the morning,
I see life.
When i sleep at night,
I see darkness.

When the next morning comes,
Life sanks 2 feet lower.
Why life carry such a Heavy Burden?

When I get back to sleep,
I see love.
When I get up in the morning,
I see rainbows.
How i wish life is that beautiful.

LoVe...... to be *pampered*

I need a guy that will hold me tight and says baby, its gonna be alright. Treat me like a princess and i'll always be there to you. Just tell me that u love me and you'll always care. "Baby, believe me that I don't need much, just your arms around me and your gentle touch. I'll be your babygirl, give you my heart, my soul and my entire world.

Message from me to you and her

致我最要好的朋友和目前最爱的人:

盼好.这个post我想写很久了,只是被某些事耽误了许久,现在总算能提起勇气,写了它.

压抑自己的感觉很难受.想找人来谈,想想下,还是算了.这个blogger算是最好诉说感觉的地方吧.Yan,我想你开始在说 "我和他是不可能的".请你平和你的心情,听听我一直以来的感受和想法.

一直以来,你和莎莎都是我最要好的朋友.我们都分享喜怒哀乐.不管是谁做了什么错也好,我们都原谅了大家.我们之间是坦白.坦白和你说,自从他喜欢你的那一天开始,我的心里也开始对你们产生怨恨.同时,我也在恨我自己.对你我只能说对不起.我非常珍惜我们之间的友情,但是从那一天起,什么都改变了.

对,我是清楚知道你和他是不可能.我也一直拿这个理由来安慰自己.最终,难逃的是他对你的感情.你也知道我为什么 desperate of him,那么爱他.当你们每一次交谈,微笑或是什么的,我的心不禁颤抖了起来.还记得他在yoyo帮你完成assignment的那一次,他和你有说有笑,有时甚至互抛媚眼.说实,感觉到我和莎莎totally是outsider,是多余的.多么恨自己为什么不第一时间离开.还有一次,那时我们还在 Bonia工作.当天是你的offday,他说要请你吃雪糕.那天你们三人都有经过 Bonia'探望'我.我看到他脸上挂着那一副灿烂的笑容,是他和我在一起,完全看不到的.你们离开后,我的眼泪从眼眶里抖出来.抛下customer,直接进去store room里哭.当时我和你们吵了.我的心真的很痛很痛.我很在意,也非常介意你们俩的每个小动作.

我始终骗不了自己,他是很喜欢你,而你在他心中占了一个重要地位.不管我做了什么,付出多大,始终都比不上你.

你就像我的亲生妹妹一般.我很疼爱你,着紧你.时常羡慕你有那么多追求者,当中有我最喜欢的人.

而他就像无尽头的海洋,而我就是这片海洋的唯一漂浮者.漂呀漂,始终看不到尽头. 他说的对,the puzzle is never a satisfaction.

我累了.身与心都累坏了.没人能救我.在这段感情里,付出最多的是我,伤的最深还是我.得到什么我不知道.遍体鳞伤是最好的形容词.

我们三人的关系已来到了决策.我想了很久,觉得是时候"离开"了.作了这个决定,我不懂对我自己有什么好处.至少,不用再隔在你们之间,可以透透气,疗我的伤.他...随时随地会向你说,'想和你在一起',趁早离开是好的.如果你们真的在一起了,衷心祝福你们.

... ...别了.

欣仪上.

离不开你

Baby 不要再哭泣
Baby bu yao zai ku qi
这一幕多么熟悉
zhe yi mu duo me shou xi
紧握着你的手彼此都舍不得分离
jin wo zhe ni de shou bi ci dou she bu de fen li
每一次想开口但不如保持安静
mei yi ci xiang kai kao dan bu ru bao chi an jing
给我一分钟专心好好欣赏你的美
gei wo yi fen zhong zhuan xin hao hao xin shang ni de mei

幸福搭配悲伤
xing fu da pei bei shang
同时在我心交叉
tong shi zai wo xin jiao cha
挫折的眼泪不能测试爱的重量
cuo zhe de yan lei bu neng ce shi ai de zhong liang
付出的爱收不回
fu chu de ai shou bu hui
还欠你的我不能给
hai qian ni de wo bu neng gei
别把我心也带走去跟随
bie ba wo xin ye dai zou qu gen sui

每一次和你分开
mei yi ci he ni fen kai
深深地被你打败
shen shen de bei ni da bai
每一次放弃你的温柔痛苦难以释怀
mei yi ci fang qi ni de wen rou tong ku nan yi shi huai
每一次和你分开
mei yi ci he ni fen kai
每一次 kiss you goodbye
mei yi ci kiss you goodbye
爱情的滋味此刻我终于最明白
ai qing de zi wei ci ke wo zhong yu zui ming bai

幸福搭配悲伤
xing fu da pei bei shang
同时在我心交叉
tong shi zai wo xin jiao cha
挫折的眼泪不能测试爱的重量
cuo zhe de yan lei bu neng ce shi ai de zhong liang
付出的爱收不回
fu chu de ai shou bu hui
还欠你的我不能给
hai qian ni de wo bu neng gei
我才明白爱最真实的滋味
wo cai ming bai ai zui xhen shi de zi wei

每一次和你分开
mei yi ci he ni fen kai
深深地被你打败
shen shen de bei ni da bai
每一次放弃你的温柔痛苦难以释怀
mei yi ci fang qi ni de wen rou tong ku nan yi shi huai
每一次和你分开
mei yi ci he ni fen kai
每一次 kiss you goodbye
mei yi ci kiss you goodbye
爱情的滋味此刻我终于最明白
ai qing de zi wei ci ke wo zhong yu zui ming bai

我终于明白
wo zhong yu ming bai

每一次和你分开
mei yi ci he ni fen kai
深深地被你打败
shen shen de bei ni da bai
每一次放弃你的温柔痛苦难以释怀
mei yi ci fang qi ni de wen rou tong ku nan yi shi huai
每一次和你分开
mei yi ci he ni fen kai
每一次 kiss you goodbye
mei yi ci kiss you goodbye
爱情的滋味此刻我终于最明白
ai qing de zi wei ci ke wo zhong yu zui ming bai

This is the song which im always listen to. It's kinda suit me, my feelings. This song was about the feeling of a person who leave his/her loves one.

.....im hungry and now im going to eat.

Life Goes On..

I started to talk, to eat but i just don't know how to smile nor laugh. Whatever it is, life still goes on.. If i smile, nobody will know there's tragedy had happen to me and nobody will know i have a baby before. Pathethic!

Yesterday went to a walk-in interview at Worldwide Sales & Advisory Sdn Bhd, somewhere in Sembulan. After filled the application form and answer 57 questions, i've been arranged to meet the sales manager. He is kinda friendly. He asked me a few questions and told me about the company and the job. He told me that someday or even soon, their KL's manager will call and talk to me. Our conversation were just simple.

I've recieved call from Ken right after the interview. He wanted to see me but i rejected it. I haven't meet anyone else except my parents after i got back from KL. I need to be alone and i don't wanted to talk much. Ken asked 'what are we? but i can't answer this question. I was just kept quiet. I'm just don't know how to answer. Friends? Lovers? Im confuse. He mad at me.

'what are we?' I ask myself. I don't know the answer.

........ "what are we?" I ask about us. Because i realised something is in between us for a long time. We knew it but you refuse to admit it. Not because of 'that'. I realised that we're loving each other since long time ago. Time goes by, and we're getting busy with our own life. I haven't agree with Ken's propose because i am still waiting for you. Hope you will say something. Besides, i just don't wish i will regret if once i choose to be with Ken. Like you say, silence means something. Soon, i will really made up my mind.

Mark, im here to say, Happy 19th Birthday to you.

Goodbye, my dear

Weather: Gloomy

3 days ago, i had lost someone that really special and most important in my life. Because of an accident, a wrong step, i've lost her. Because of my careless..and all that.. Totally hate of myself. Now im like passing day like ages.

Why won't You take me with her? I've asked this question thousand times. At least she will not be alone. I find this entirely my fault. I can't accept that she'll never back to me anymore.

Things happened and it still fresh in my mind.

16th February, noon time.
I fell down from the staircase of Ken's house. My head hitted something and made me unconscious right after that. I'm awake in the midnight and the doctor told me everything.

I cry, as loud as i can. Threw away anything that i could reach. I even slapped myself few times. Hoping it's just a nightmare...but it wasn't . My head, my hand and my body are pain. My heart was broken and it still bleeding.

Close myself in the room. Ain't talking to anyone. I can't sleep and eat either. Pray that she may find a better place. Am so sorry and missing of you.

She is someone that really close to me, a part of my life.

Touch her, feel her and talked to her every previous day or night.

She meant alots to me.

She was my 1st baby girl.

Rest in Peace, sweetheart. Mami loves you.

Happy Valentine's Day

已是进入2006年了,情人节才刚过去,生活还是很孤独寂寞. Han和我分手了,他也离开了.真可悲呢!有很多很多事情发生都来不及感叹,就已成为过去.

看着他的照片(我终于把他的照片给洗出来了),很想念他.那份思念真的能盖过天呢! *感叹*

爱,到底是怎么样的一回事?
是可以眼睁睁地看着自己所爱的人去喜欢另一个女生,和她在一起;而扮出毫不介意的的样子吗?

这是所谓的爱吗?

我不懂.我爱他,对他来说是个霸占.占去他所有的自由,大部分的时间,占去他爱人的权力.这个极可能是他所想的.

他在几个月前(去年)after vendy,喜欢上我这一生最要好的朋友,Yan.不自觉地,会讨厌他们起来. 算是心理不平衡吗?

对!爱可以很自私! 爱是盲目!我一一赞成.隔在他们之间,一个是我所爱的人,另一个是我最要好的朋友,真的非常辛苦.难道我所付出的,所给的都比不上她吗? 她不爱你,也对你毫无感觉,为何你却偏偏喜欢上她呢? 为何你要一次次的伤害我? 难道我没感觉吗? 说的也是, 是真的有点麻木了.有时,真的真的一走了之就算了.何必再爱他,再想他呢? 说的比做的谈何容易.

时常苦恼,很痛心.再也想不到如何安慰自己了.这会是报应吗? 我真的好累好累.每一次都给自己理由去等他,爱他.很希望和他在一起.更糟的是,我会去拿我的好朋友作比较.反复地问,自己有什么不好? 为什么他只看上她? 是少了那可爱的样貌,娇小的身材还是缺了那份气质? 后边再来的是一番自责.我好难过哦! 也果真的难受,为什么我拿她作比较呢? 超恨自己那样想,但同时也不知道该做些什么.好矛盾!

很想去关心他,陪伴他,去照顾他.更想知道他在想什么,他在做什么,想为他分担一些事情. 自己所做的蛋糕,拿给他尝.做的每一番心意,都好想让他知道.不介意有多辛苦,多卖力也好,自己没钱吃饭也罢,为他所做的一切,祗要他高兴,他喜欢. 爱就是这份情意. 不管有多苦,只要他露出一个笑容,那已经是很好的回答.

很无奈的是,他封锁他自己.不再用心去接受我的爱.他要我坚强,我拼了.泪也不再怎么流了,他看到这些改变吗? 他要我爱自己,我誓也不再做出一些伤害自己的事.因为有他,我热爱自己的生命.是他,让我慢慢地成长.这是值得爱他的一点.

回想起那天送行时,他给我的话和拥抱,我的泪不禁流下来.我真的很想,很想念他.

心疼的是,外国的天气非常冷,偶尔不怎么寻常,而他不怎么会照顾自己(女生总比男生还要细心). 有几次病倒了都不说.多希望能抛开一切,买张机票,飞过去照顾他.看见照片里的他的确瘦了许多,心很难受!

为了他是值得的!

手机里存放了很多他发送给我的讯息,空闲时就会开来念.也录了3个短片,在很想很想他的时候,都会开来看.心慰的是,自己有很多张他的照片,随时随地都看得到他.

时常和他吵架.每一次不都是因为语言不怎么通,而是自己呆头呆脑地,惹恼了他.好想对他说,I'm sorry.I believe we could be more better than this. 我对他是期待.期待明年中的到来.那时侯,他会回来.期待他的笑容.

千次万次地告诉他,我很爱他.希望他明嘹.心里没有什么要求,只希望他能够找到自己,勇敢面对人生,好好活着.那已经足够了.他会不会爱我,会不会和我在一起,那些并不重要.因为我会一直地等待他.爱他的心不变!

最后,很想和他说声, 我爱你!

the 101th post: Kiss Goodbye

A song from lee hom, enjoy it. ;)

No idea

Im moody, because of what happened to me. I wanna shout it out, please bring me out to beach.

It's going to rain, and it will be a heavy rain.

Last night, went to friend's open house. Met up my ex classmate and friends. Bla bla bla.. I'm shocked by the fire-crackers. *geee* There was a liondance performance, but i wasn't pay attention at all. Crap, its follow me all the time. Lastly, we ended up at Adrian's house. House with dog smells. We're watching horror movie at first while Adrian was cleaning up his place. After he finished his housework, started the gambled. Finally, i've lost 30+ bucks. *sigh* Back home at 1.30am. Went online and wish to talk to him. But.. *sigh* he was away. Cried. I do really wish there will be someone to talk to. But..there's nobody.

Today is Chinese Valentine's Day. For me, it's just like usual. Ken didn't find me since last night. Guess he is busy entertain his girlfriends. Great. At least, i will not see his face.

Chat with a friend just now. Hmm.. He was my ex. He is the one that i love before him although we never meet before. It has been a long time since we've talk to each other. We talked about our life. He is having a loves one with him. :) Bless him with his girl. He asked me something and i answered him frankly. He is kinda dissapointed in me. You simply gross me out he says. Im sorry that i've made you dissapointed in me. Despite of what happened, i ain't regret. Ain't looking for superficial things to feed my void. Its mutual. I know what am i doing. Thanks for your concern. Really.

Life is sulking. I feel like im the dumbass with wishful thinking. but i never stop loving myself and you. Its you who keeps me goes on.

Fight. There something in life you deserve.

Climb.With whatever you have.

Be yourself.

and Love yourself babe. You deserve to be happy.

... ... this is what im always carry on my mind. Thank you. *hugs*

Torino 2006

The lighting of Cauldron and Opening Ceremony
An outstanding show that will keep two billion spectators glued to the screen: on February 10, 2006 starting at 8 pm, the strong emotion of the Opening Ceremonies of the Torino 2006 XX Olympic Winter Games at the Stadio Olimpico. More info or news at Torino 2006

Photo gallery of opening ceremony click here

What can i say, the opening ceremony were really spectacular. Check it out!

what the...

My mum asked me to edit a speech that she gonna deliver it by tomorrow. Wow! 5 pages of it. @.@ I read it at 1st. I started to laugh when i read the second paragraph. For your infomation, the speech was ready by an english graduated woman. She was the ex school principal for Seri Mengasih, Tanjung Aru. However, the speech was kinda 'chinese' And mum and me laughed at it. So here's the original speech.
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Original copy
# Selamat pagi/petang dan selamat datang saya ucapkan kepada semua ibubapa yang datang hari ini.

Saya sangat gembira kerana ibubapa ambil masa datang hadir mesyuarat hari ini. Ada dua perkara penting saya ingin beritahu kepada ibubapa:

*started to laugh* Satu ialah, sudah tiba masa untuk membuat committee baru untuk tahun 2006 dan 2007 bagi Family Support Group Seri Mengasih. Cara kami membuat committee baru kali adalah baru. *lol* Nanti ibubapa akan keluar berkumpul ikut kelas masing-masing, ikut kelas cikgu. Very detially Ibubapa yang anak dalam Kelas Senior Satu pergi ke kelas senior satu, ibubapa Kelas Vokasional Recycled Paper pergi ke Bengkel Recycled Paper, kelas cikgu akan bawa nanti. Bila sudah dalam kelas, ... ... ... I guess the audience will laugh at my mum.

..... .... .... bla bla bla

Perkara yang kedua, saya harap bila semua ibubapa kumpul ikut kelas, ada lebih banyak masa untuk get to know each other, *uiks, english pula. lol* berkongsi sharing *pengsan, malay mix english*, jumpa bila masa hantar anak ke sekolah kah, start the kah kah kah.. ambil pulang kah, *does she mean takeaway?* masa-masa hari-raya kah. Ini... ... ...

.... ... .... three paragraphs of bla bla bla

Kerja kami sebagai ibubapa anak.... tidak akan habis, sampai mati mum says, masuk kon coi(coffin) *rofl* .... ... ... kalau satu orang sahaja tidak boleh buat apa-apa.

Di sini, saya ingin ucap ribuan terimakasih.. ... .... Banyak saya sudah belajar, dan walaupun saya sudah habis kerja FSG, saya masih mahu tolong sebab banyak lagi mesti dibuat, saya akan ikut special committee.. .. until my mum said cut, cut, cut. LoL

Akhir sekali, saya minta maaf kepada sesiapa ibubapa atau cikgu kalau ada buat apa-apa yang salah, cakap salah, harap jangan simpan di hati. Dua tahun ini... ... once again, my mum shoutted CUTTT!!! rofl

Sekian dan terima kasih.#

Behind it, there's 3 words for my mum, but actually its for me.. "Please check thru" It takes me quite a long time to laugh instead of correct it. Here is the edited speech.
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My copy
* Selamat datang dan salam sejahtera saya ucapkan kepada semua ibubapa yang hadir pada hari ini.

Saya amat gembira kerana ibubapa sudi meluangkan masa untuk menghadiri mesyuarat pada hari ini. Di sini, saya mempunyai tiga perkara penting ingin memberitahu kepada ibubapa.

Pertama, sudah tiba masanya untuk membina committee baru Family Support Group Seri Mengasih bagi tahun 2006 dan 2007. Cara kami membina committee pada tahun ini adalah berbeza daripada tahun-tahun yang lalu. Sebentar lagi......

Tugas wakil kelas adalah menghadiri setiap mesyuarat sepanjang satu tahun. Selain itu, wakil kelas wajib menghadiri mesyuarat Biannual General Meeting... ...

guess the audiences zZzZzzZz

Perkara kedua, saya berharap ibubapa mengambil masa yang lebih...

bla bla bla bla and bla..... ....

Di sini, saya ingin mengucapkan ribuan terima kasih kepada semua ibubapa kerana banyak menolong saya dalam dua tahun ini.

bla bla bla bla again... ...

Sekian terima kasih.*
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Ok ok, i know its abit formal. But much better than the original right? *LOL* I've shorted it into 2 pages. Guess my mum will feel satisfy kua.. Hope so.. By the way, she is tidur mati at this time while im busy to check dictionary and edit the speech. Ohya, i found out gay means cheerful. *winks* Anyway, thanks to Ashley cause she gave me some useful ideas. Muakss.

Its about 11.30pm, i went to take my shower. Sneezing. Look at the mirror, saw my tired and sick face. I feel like vomit. It's just ugly. *yucks* Hate to see it. Now, im hungry. Maggi mee isn't enough for me. I drank another cup of milk. Owh gosh!! I had missed the show 'Notting Hill'. *ish ish*

You are wearing my patience thin.

*Sigh* *speechless*
Am just have no idea on how to start this post. Im just feel deeply sad.

what is this all about? how am i gonna fight for it?

Arggh!!

Ken mentioned something during dinner with him last night. I was totally stuned. Ask myself, are you aware of his suggestion? Yes, i did. Needless to say, i won't do it. Despite of what happen. It meant a great deal to me.

what do you take me for?

I can't even sleep well. Nightmare continues. Talked to him but... i can't put my feelings into words. Wanted to tell you that, i do really love you.. but.. *sigh* i don't want to hear the same things from you.

Is it mean to be this way?

Valentine's dishes

Nothing is bored than stay at home alone. Dear friends, im here at kk. But soon, im going back to KL again. Your guys must be wondering why am i so rich to fly here and there. Well, if you got the chance, you may ask Mr. Kendrick. He is the one who pay the fee. This time, he came along with me. For his business and as my companion. Not to mention, his sexy secretary was here too.

Today, i was planned to go out but my friend, Russ is feeling unwell. Plan cancelled. Just stay at home and try out some Valentine's dishes. Yea yea, this is what i do at KL in this 2 weeks. Things doesn't run that smooth without kakak Tini's help. Hmm, boiled soup just now. Its called 'Stir-fry crab meat with broccoli' It's simple and easy to make it. Everyone can try it. =p

Stir-fry Crab Meat with Broccoli

Ingredients:

1 canned crab meat, 2 cloves garlics, 50g carrot, 50g broccoli, 2 pieces mushroom.

Seasoning:

3 cups stock, 1/4 teaspoon pepper, 2 tablespoon starch

Method:

1. Soak and remove the stem of mushroom(deep clean it), shredded. Carrot juliennes. Chop garlic. Cut broccoli into small pieces and blanch.(remember to wash it too)

2. Heat 1 tablespoon oil in wok, saute garlic until fragrant, toss in mushroom and carrot then dish out.

3. Open the can and pour the contents into the wok, add seasoning and bring to boil, add in mushroom and carrot, mix well, dish out into serving plate and garnish with broccoli.

Just that simple. Make sure it is boil then serve.

Uncomparable

Im so down! Dammit!!

You know what? I thought i could get over you and somemore, the feeling i have for you. But at last, i realised that it isn't that easy as i thought. I still called you and talked to you as well although i mad of you. Now, I feel like shit.

she is damn good for you, you like her and i try so hard to stay aside.

she is damn pretty for you, you love it.

because of me, thank you, you stop talked to her for long time, but back to reality and can't lie to yourself that you missing of her.

it isn't just infatuation, that is your real feeling.

good dammit, i hate this kind of feelings.

best friend and lover, who shall I choose? I don't need your answer.

the truth is im so tired being between both of you.

no matter how hard i try, what did i do, i just don't deserve to have your love.

im getting mad and mad of myself, what am i waiting for? and why i gave myself reasons to wait of you?

and now, you say its nonsence when i told you that you stand a chance to be with her.. what the..

isn't that what you long for? Go ahead and never look back. You deserve it.

Fuh! Frust enough!!

Fa Cai Fa Cai

1st of all, Gong Xi Fa Cai to all of you. Second, sorry for neglecting my blog for long long time. I had been really busy during Chinese New Year. Busy meet new friends, relatives and old friends, entertained peoples..and lots.. Its fun but its tiring. Not enough sleep.. Met alots of human during CNY at Tawau. Can't recall who are they. That is not important. Managed to meet most of my relatives.. They are really "aunty". Gossip me wherever they are. Tsk! And, thanks to them for done so many things try to promote me. Duh~ Miss Malaysia? *Laugh out really loud* I don't think i can handle this. Ohya, i saw Amber Chia during went to take supper with friends at Dai Pai Dong. She is sexy, we can't deny it. Weird cause some of my friends doesn't really like her. She ain't pretty but she's sexy. However, she is a top model and should be proud of her.

Angpau angpau.. I got alotss of angpaus.. *keke* Did gamble and i won alotss.. *hoho* Besides, i've learned to make my favourite mango pudding from my grandma. Tastes nice but i can make it more nice. :D~~ Still have 5 pieces left in the refrigerator. Gonna really enjoy it.

Back to KL, the huge house was decorated. Really Fung Sek!!! It was decorated by kakak Tini and Ken. *lol* Ken? Isn't he busy entertain his friends? Yeah, he is more busy than me. Different peoples came everyday and night. His friends, company staffs, "tai lip lao-tai lip lao", relatives, business partners and his ex girlfriends... You definately can't imagine how many of them. Most important are i can get lots of 'big' angpaus and watch my dung dung cheng. The house was totally noisy. Most of the time, i just hide inside my room. Glad that Kakak Tini wasn't that busy because Ken employed another 2 maids to help Kakak Tini. Sometimes i asked Kakak Tini to curi tulang in my room. *keke* I've noticed that some of Ken's ex gfs stared at me. *gee* I felt uncomfortable. Ken's parents back from New Zealand on Chinese New Year Eve. They called and asked why didn't i spent time with them during this festive season. Well, i just can say sorry. At last, i did come back right? Fuiyo~ I have to answer their thousand questions since the 1st minutte i stepped into the house. Not to mention, their angpau were 'huge'. Insecure to keep those angpaus in the house.

Well, i think that's my Chinese New Year. I will edit it if i've forgotten something.