Life is cruel.

Back to kl, Ken pick me up from KLIA. We didn't talk over 10 words in the car. It was a piece silent. Arrived. Kakak Tini was waiting me at the garden. She was quite excited when she saw me. She is such a nice person. She prepared many dishes for me. Almost my favourite. Love her very much. At night, we talked to each other. She knew im not happy staying at here. She was pity of me. She said she can't help me anything. She did. She cheers me up.. I saw a present and a bouguet of lily with a card at my cupboard near my bed. The present contains a ring, a pair of earrings and a necklace. One set accessories with small diamond with it. Really nice. It's present from Ken. Although i like it, but i don't feel like recieve it. =/

This afternoon went online chat with Ray. He told me love someone doesn't mean have to be with him and should wish him for his own happiness. Maybe he's right. I have to let go of him. I wish im generous to do this. Please tell me if i really have to do so.. If once i did, please don't appear in my life anymore, i scare i will regret. I never wanted to see if he is with anyone else.