Emotionally hurt

Im sick. Not enough sleep i guess. My body and my soul are tired. Friends were arguying about the trip to KL. I'm really don't understand why he's so wanted to argue with my best friend using his hundred rude words seems it was just misunderstood. Mr A, can you be gentlemen? How can you argue with a girl using bunch of rude words? Definately Ridiculous! We're here to solve problems, not to argue. Please behave yourself. Because of you, i've been scold by my mum and made my friend dislike of me. I'm really sorry to my friend because wake him up in the middle of night.

Sigh.. What else bad will come towards me? I feel so weak. I can't stand it anymore.

Last night, i had recieved a mms from someone. He is my ex bf. Before that, he phoned me. He sounds weird. On the phone, he didn't talk much. He wrote his feeling on the mms. He can read my mind. After read the message, i'm touched then i cried. Im so sorry of how i treated him during the day we're been together. Whatever i had done to him, he still can forgive me and he loves me. He's really a nice person. Im bad. I live with guilts. I can't forgive myself. Sigh. Who am i now? Shrug. I still have to move on regardless who i am. To you, i just can say sorry.